*Sometimes all I wish for is a warm hug and a shoulder to cry on.. someone who is solely mine to put all my love for*

I have a wonderful & healthy family, friends that care and love me for who I am, have a lot of wonderful things that many people out there may not have the chance to have or enjoy... Yet, this time, I just want to hold on to the selfish thought for a while... Just a one thought to hold me through what I am fighting inside me... Just to let me hold on to the thin line that is keeping me from crossing over to things I dun wanna think or do...

I pray for strength...

just finished watching brokeback mountain... totally cried my eyes out... can't imagine if i was watching in the cinema. Would have been so embarassed after the movie with my eyes all swollen & sniffling away...
Heard from a friend that it was a good movie... & only got to watch it now... yeah, i agree with her that the movie was very sad... sigh... and we lost a very good actor... oh man... i'm feeling so sad right now... ah!!! better go to bed now...

friday the 13th : ECP : rollerblading day : sunny!!

Sunny day at ECP on a nice weekday... Blading day for 2 girls! It was so different from blading on a weekend.. Spacious and empty that it was the 1st time I just sprawl in the middle of the track n literally suntanning! hahaha.. loving blading so much! But also the 1st time after so many years of blading that i fell right on my butt that day... nursing a bruise on my left thigh now keke... still it was a long time since i had so much fun blading!

Resolution for the week: eat less, train more for the Shear's Bridge Run, & blade more!

Into the last month of school holiday... watched uncountable numbers of movies, shows, dramas etc... Really drove my brain insane with the large amount of visuals...
Sadly, I did not catch up on my reading as much as I would have loved to. Only managed to read 2 books over the 3 months. Loved "Pride & Prejudice & Zombies"... The style of writing is a little hard to digest & understand sometimes (or most of the beginning of the book).. but slowly got the hang of it and finished the book. It's really interesting to read. Now i'm gonna read a continuation of the story written by another author who also loved the original story from Jane Austen. Wonder if it's as good...

I've uploaded a new song to my blog again. This time its from a korean movie that I watched last night called "Lovers". Its a sad story i suppose... since the male & female lead doesn't get their happily ever after ending with each other. It did made me ponder over some of the conversations that they had. "What will you do if the one you are destined for, appears in front of you just before your wedding day?" Gave it some thought... and was wondering what I will do if that happens.. That aside, enjoy the song... its very soothing & melancholy in a way... i do suggest not to listen to it when you are feeling down... Or u r gonna need a huge wad of tissue to go with it....

Enjoy....

不知道自己在做什么，只知道我不能再一次受伤。。。 因为我没自信能够再站起来...

因为害怕，所以胆怯...

New song!

New music to listen to... swee!! hahaha....

Exam Woes

Exams stress must be getting to me. Feeling down quite often lately. Hmm... more like sian. The time constrain is not doing any good to the mood too... Need to find modes of destressing, but time is so tight with my 1st paper next friday. HELP!!!

The only thing that helps right now is listening to music, esp the mashing from Norwegian Recycling... Its really very good! I almost liked all the songs done... Other than that, dunno what else to do since my pocket is also another constrain. =P

Currently dun wanna change the background song yet, but if i do feel like switching it, I'll put up NR's songs that I liked... Tink u all will like it too. Do check out the songs by searching for the website! =)

Back to mugging after a shower... Weather is killing my skin... Keep feeling sticky....

Sushi on Friday...
Yeah.. i've come to realize that my blog is just so full of food stuff... Had a dinner with my bunch of girlfriends. Sushi was nice, but the company was even better hahaha...

Food Galore...
Finally a chance to gather with the girls for an outing in town. Mainly ended up with buying food and eating and just talking the whole afternoon... Relaxing and enjoyable...

Max Brenner Choc drink... Smooth dark choc with a shot of liquor.. Heavenly~ Mmmm...

"Dinner" at MOF... Must try bibimbap, Jap style... Smelled really good as we were having our dessert. so decided to share it among 4 of us...

The aftermath of our dessert sweep...

This red bean dessert is really sweet... serious stuff hahaha

Mee Sua at Ion with Esther before we met up with the other 2 gals... Was a meatball type. But i still personally prefer the oyster type mee sua...

I like this Jap treat... nice to munch on... Tink it was something like a sweet soya sauce dip... Wud love it if it was caramel or kuromitsu sauce hahaha

Conclusion: was a day of food, food, and more food... then it was off to my hse for an overnight session of mahjong! hahah...

Annoying orange

My friend just introduced this clip to me that is on youtube, Think we got too bored n stressed while doing our proteomics report hahahha....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZN5PoW7_kdA

Go watch it if you are free and wants to get irritated by an orange hahaha... It's funny!!

"hey, hey apple... apple. hey hey apple apple.... you look fruity..nehehehhee..." LOL...

Not exactly feeling top of the world now. Gastric is acting up a bit... seriously MUST cut down on coffee and get more sleep... Last minite my drug discovery group realized that we have an upcoming presentation next week (maybe... ) and we are not exactly done yet... Oooo... and we dun even know if we are presenting next week or not... Apparently our lecturer sis not confirm with us the details on schedule and stuff, but the cohort is all edgy about it... Hope the details come out soon or we'll never feel the peace! ahaha...

Liked the song I recommended so far?? =D

Looking for New Moon movie... anyone has it??

Sunday night, a quiet and peaceful night... & this is a wonderful song to listen to while relaxing with a good book... I'm reading my 3rd Twilight series book - Eclipse. Sometimes I feel like I can relate to how Bella feels for Edward, especially in New Moon when he left her alone in Forks... The things that Bella felt and how she found a new comfort in Jacob... I think that Jacob is so sweet to Bella hahahha.... But poor Jacob...

Anyway, that isn't the point tonight. I just wanted to share this song with u people! So enjoy the song while reading thru the lyrics! U can sing along too! I love everything about this song. Melody, lyrics and the way it was sung... I kept picturing that this song is perfect for those photo slideshows that you see in wedding reception or dinner... Or when you do a slideshow as a very sweet present... I thought of it suddenly cos I remembered my roomie's bf made her a very sweet slide show for her 21st bdae. He got me to give some comments to the photo slideshow. I was so touched while watching the slideshow that I almost cried... and it wasn't even for me lor!! Hahhaha... so u can imagine my roomie's reaction when she saw it. It was meant as a surprise for her... You can really see the amount of hard work n effort and time put into this present lor!! Its something money can never buy... SO SWEET!!! SO TOUCHING!!! Hahha enough ranting from me le.. Enjoy my favourite song everyone!! =) Hope you can find or have already found that sweetest person to spend your days with!! Where's mine seriously??!! hahahah....

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Yaay! Finished my presentation today! And apparently din do too badly either! The lecturer allowed us to see the grades for each presenter... So i'm quite fine with my grades.

Today also ended school early, so I finally got the time to get a nice treatment done for my hair... which gave me ample time to finish the Twilight saga 2nd book "New moon". Its a good book, despite a few frens saying that its not a very interesting series. Now just waiting to borrow the 3rd book from my fren.

Other than that, can say that its a boring day... Exams are in a month from now. So its just charge ahead with mugging!

Yawn~ slow slow day... gonna find some games to play and shows to watch le...

Photos photos and more photos..
Took a slight interest in taking photos recently. Dad bought a new Canon SLR 50D camera from the IT show few weeks back... Cute n compact. He showed me a new lens that he got together with the camera. What it does is like the pictures below. Focus on a main object then blur out everything else at the back. I thought it was very interesting since it saves me the trouble of having to use photoshop. The images are really sharp and bright too! haha... I'll bring it out for some photo-taking session after my exams ba!

My 1st ever Gundam model

Introducing model no. 1 - Lambie

Looking far far away...

Model no. 2 - Sheepie

Nice pictures rite? Very clear and sharp images... probably a bit bright?

Boohoo... stuck at starbucks doing my lab report.. Can't work well at home, that's why I ran out to do with my laptop and my lambie! haha... In the end I drank too much coffee and LS... bleah!

Bored and taking a break now... Play with my webcam...

IKEA & Queensway day out!
Hahahh I guess most of u can see where these food are from!

Dessert 1st!

Then the hot & crispy chicken wings, not to be missed!

The one food I MUST eat when I am there! If not, I have not been to Ikea... =D

The whole spread!

Spent a saturday at queensway to shop for a new pair of Asics shoes for myself. Need to go jogging and I love their shoes... I'm actually quite lucky to be able to buy a nice pair at $71. I was surprised when the sales person told me it was kid's size haha... & I actually managed to fit in them!! Cool!! I'm just plain lucky that day I suppose.

My new darling asics!!

Nagoya Ma Maison
Gonna blog about a restaurant that I went with a friend.... It's such a nice and cosy place... It's even more romantic at night when the sky is dark. We sat by the window and it looks out to the river along Clark Quay... Plus it was a rainy day, so the sky was misty...

The 1st thing that caught my eye when we sat at our table was this table lamp. It fits nicely with the decor at the table... I din take a lot of picture, but just to show a few things that we saw and ate that night. =) I think the pictures can do a better job than me describing...

The nice lamp

At our table, looking out to Singapore River and Clark Quay

The squid ink pasta I ordered. It's just nice to my liking. Not too much ink too! haha...

Omu rice with Beef Stroganov my friend ordered. It was ok for me, since i'm not a very meat-person... Tasty nontheless... =)

Dessert time!! Its a very tasty cheesecake! Should try!! Sweetness is just nice with a soft velvety texture! Yummy!

Guess what is inside it??

Taadaah!!! The yummiest caramel pudding I ever had so far!! And you might think it was chinese tea inside....

Coffee after a nice meal... in a very nice cup! Definitely gives a nice feeling drinking from it! haha...

Sugar bowl

At this time, i just started taking random photos le....

When you are done with the meal, just bring this key to the counter for payment. Both of us started speculating why use this... And we thought it probably was to blend into the whole ambience of a cosy cottage feel....

Generally it was a good dinner.... Definitely will wanna go back to try other dishes and the brownie with ice cream... And most imptly the CARAMEL PUDDING!!!!!!

Random rambles...

- After opening my hotmail, this is what I have to say for the day:
What makes people think that I need to buy Viagra, such that I need emails about it?? Spams... *roll eyes*

- Hungry me is a sarcastic me...

- Pizza day in hall with frens in about 16 hrs time!! Yippee!!

- I love my new crumpler bag!! Which makes it my 3rd one so far... 4th one presumably coming up soon... =D I can never get enough of Crumpler!!

- Iphone is the best phone I had by far... worth it!

- Exams coming... FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!! PLS START WORKING HARD, ME!!

*End of Nonsense*

Eh... I'm back again! I'm half buried in quizzes this recess week. But I sort of slacked half the week away playing games on my laptop... that's why i'm still up at this time mugging away... =(

Suddenly thought of blogging cos I met up with an old JC 1st 3 mth friend of mine for dinner. It was so great to be able to catch up on our latest news as well as reminiscing about our 1st 3 months in CJC... We really talked a lot about those fun and carefree days... got reminded of a lot of happy stuff and also the sad stuff... but nontheless.... those were precious memories to me. If only we can go back to those days again and go through it once again...

Got lots of CNY steamboat pics to post up and to blog about it... just haven't had time to go through the photos and choose those that i want to post up yet... hopefully i'll fork out some time tml to do a nice job on it here.

Busy busy 2nd half of the semester coming up... need to work hard and focus more on mugging le... not much time left till exams again!! AH!!!!

wth am i doing? i'm gg crazy...

I'm dancing~~ my iphone my pure white iphone!! its finally here!!

一棵开花的树

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻为这
我已在佛前求了五百年
求他让我们结一段尘缘

佛于是把我化作一棵树
长在你必经的路旁
阳光下慎重地开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近请你细听
那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情
而当你终于无视地走过
在你身后落了一地的
朋友啊那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心

A very nice poem I heard on 海派甜心 read by Rainie's character... Its very... i dunno... serene?? I loved it when i 1st heard it on the 1st episode of the show. Together with the scene shown in the show, it was fabulous...

Bleah... been sick again!! Get well soon me!!!

*Sorry.. somehow can't get the chinese words to be bigger... sorry if ya had to squint yur eyes a bit to read*

TIRED! just sent a friend off at the airport. She's gg to china for internship and studying at the same time. Gonna be away for half a year or so... gonna miss her!!

meanwhile, the gloomy cloud is still hovering around a lot of pple... Me? Well, i'm still not so bad yet. But i'm also puzzled over a lot of stuff. Confused is a more appropriate word to describe ba...

Started watching new show! 海派甜心! Its a very nice show... heh... love the look of Rainie in the show! The 1st few episode her whole look is quite rock?? goth? Hmm.. not really goth ba... just dark ba, and i like it a lot! Just a bit apprehensive, like wondering if i can carry off the look...

Her hair is so nice in the show... that's the style i wan try. Comments pple?? Haha.. shld i go and try this style? But it also means that i have to go straighten and dye it dark brown.. And the bangs as well... pls gimme some comments ba! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! heehee...

Wow! I left this place stagnant for so long that one of my friend started complaining! Hahhaa... paiseh ah unkle jim! =P away with the unhappy tone and welcome the new year! & my new world! It has been an okay start of the new year. No doubt with a few downs, but it has still been a good start. All thanks to my dearest friends standing by me thru my darkest time during the past half year... I cannot express how happy I am to have them by my side... I foresee some more downs but I will definitely pull myself thru... Pls bear with me for a while more okay??

New semester is starting and I need to go all out at full force to mug my brains out. Last sem was a total wreck!! OMG! I almost died when i saw my exam results!! No thanks to the past few months of missing too many lectures and tutorials.... So this sem, i must GAMBATTE!!

Learnt new things in the past week. YAY! Finally learned how to play Left for Dead 2! Met new friends too!! Played hockey and softball for IHG.. A bit disappointed that our hockey girls din manage to get to the semi-finals... We did well already girls! Be proud of our effort! Played softball for the first time since JC also. Its so fun to play!! Dirty & muddy game, but nonetheless a very fun game! Just that we were lacking in practice...

A lot of photo taken also, but i havent had the enthusiasm to go dig them and post them in FB or here... so have to see when i'm in the mood ba! hahahha....