By the suggestions of a few frens, I decided I prob shld jot my thoughts down.

Been feeling down again these few days due to feeling of missing someone. I dunno if its because of the popping up of the person into my mind, I've been dreaming of the person consecutively for a few nights. Dreams that I could feel so much bliss and happiness inside. Seems as if nothing happened in that quiet world, but a place where I cannot control what will happen next. Waking up with the memories of the dreams fresh in my mind... its so sad, because i know they are not true in the real world, but yet, i want to remain in there... i rather be there. I tried to keep my mind occupied with other things. Worked well i might say, but even so, he will sneak into my mind when i least expected it. I probably should feel glad that my heart does not hurt as much as before, when i think about him. Now, its just longing and a lot of missing. I really still miss him so much. I cannot deny that. No use lying to myself. Once in a while, tears will threaten to fall, but i still manage to hold them back. I haven't cried because of him for some time... sometimes i think whether i shld probably let my guard down and just break down for a while... instead of controlling and telling myself to hold them back. I know i will not fall. I can get back up on my own... Just that, now, i realised that I still miss him so much. Even without contact or seeing him, I still miss him so much...

"there are so many things i know i can no longer do. I can no longer make cheesecake. Because its your favourite and its only meant for u. I can no longer play the games u taught me to, because its u who taught me. I can no longer sing that specific song anymore, because it was only meant for u from the bottom of my heart. Maybe one fine day, when I have finally placed everything down, I may once again do all these stuff. But now... its not possible at all, not even a single bit anymore..."

Erm... skipped a few days of blogging cos its the weekend! so took a little break heh heh... Had the long dreaded field trip to bukit timah reserve last thursday. Actually it wasn't that bad, in a way. Weather wasn't that all good, but it was still cooling after a short morning rain. Slightly humid, very wet... fresh air in the rainforest... Caught quite a bit of interesting stuff actually. Took TONS of photos tat I'm still trying to upload n sift through. I can't possibly put everything up haha... my laptop seems like it gg to crash anytime soon too... So I definitely have to start transferring stuff to my external hard drive and the re-format my laptop, before it really dies on me... =(

Me & my roomie! @ field trip

Had a good massage today at a spa treatment... SO COMFY!! N relaxing... it really feels so good to finally be able to go for a body massage... loosen my very stiff shoulders and neck... I wanna go again!! After that is just basically shopping, with a futile effort of trying to study at Teadot... =P Was suppose to b a good day, but still had a bit of the blues, esp at the later half of the day... when things I dun wanna remember at all kept popping into my mind, as i walk thru familiar places... But now, after some music therapy, I feel so much better le... Music can really heal the soul, especially a hurt soul.

Learnt something new today: how to put on fake eyelashes without the help of the lash clipper!! So cool!! I love the fake eyelashes!! Haha... definitely will see me with them more often! But my current ones seems kinda flimsy after my "torture"... Better get some new ones as a precaution bah!

Interesting sighting: 7.45am woke up to the sound of horning from ground floor of my block. Some wedding going on but it was like the cutest one i've seen so far. Apparently, the brother band (following the groom) hired a SG explorer bus (those we see in town area that fetches tourists ard) to pick the bride up instead of the usualy bridal car... COOL!! the all the bestmen worn matching outfits of white shirt, black ties and brown berms!! OMG... the cutest sight!! And to top it off, one of them had a loudhailer with him and shouting commands and blasting song from his HP... hahhaha... i had quite a bit of fun watching the going-ons to be angry for being woken up at such early hours (given that I slept at 4am and took drowsy flu med to bed)... Kinda like the idea of such outta-this-world kind of picking the bride up! hahaha...

The very special sight!
*Sorry if the quality is nt good. taken from 10th storey, its the best I can do*

Wednesday le... Fell sick liao. Flu from yesterday apparently became sore throat. Now its blocked nose, ears & head... O.o feels very hollow in my head... Missed lab and lecture for the day. I prob shld go to bed since I alr took med... Mid autumn fest celebration is gg on in hall. Gonna b noisy!! *Shrug* dun tink i have the mood & energy to go join in the celebration.. *weak*

Went shopping yest with SZ for some stuff. Bot a new top! Yay! But someone else had a better load than I did! Hahaha... bot a necklace and some tops... rite rite??*grinz* Had dinner at Taka. German sausages and pasta... taste good! Esp when eaten with mustard... Look at the happy face below as evidence! =D

the satisfied customer!

Me!!

Its quite a big portion actually, given its only sausages...

Oooo... yummy!!!

Something is wrong with my mood again these 2 days. PMS? I hope its only that... Prob also saw old pictures bah... AHHH~~ cannot!!! Must not think le! *piak myself* =D

School start lo!!!! I actually went for 830 lecture & din fall asleep at all!!! Wahahha... so proud of myself! =P Budden ah, wanted go for tutorial but realised that i got a lab report due today at 5pm! N i havent done it yet!!! O.o so in the end missed all my tut to rush out the report. Full lab report ah!! Luckily its done!! *phew* busy day today... later still got hockey training at 7pm. Then a meeting at 8.30pm... Gotta rush bak to hall to shower then rush down for meeting... hahha packed but yet I feel good lor... Haven't felt this happy for so long le... =D

Dunno y but stoopid FB dun let me upload my photos!!! Argh!! Keep telling my upload failed! What is wrong with it.... Grrrrr..... Tonite if i'm free then try again... Prob in middle when i'm revising today's lect bah... Hmm... can try do tut also... *wah~ suddenly work hard siah heh heh~*

Was watching a Taiwan drama... got a very cute animal called sugar glider... so cute! But apparently we cannot have it as a pet in SG. Banned cos its considered exotic animal I think... But its so cute... sigh~ wanted to keep one but since its also quite costly... its nt possible for me to have 1 even if its allowed... sigh~ oh well~ =)

Shopping tml!!! Yay!!! I wanna look for a clutch bag but thinking that I prob wun use it much, i shld prob just borrow from pple who has one huh?? Cos I only need it for a night when i attend a fren's wedding dinner... a handbag just doesnt look as nice with the dress i'm gonna wear... Excited for the upcoming events!! =D

Another weekend over le! And as usual I din study much! Hahaha.... But I had a happy week of rest @ home, enjoyed the Thursday shopping, Friday kbox & bdae celebration @ night for SZ & weekend in hall! =D Much more cam-whoring appeared this weekend!! hahaha...

On a sadder note... my term break is over so fast!!! Sadz~ din have enuff fun & now its back to study again!! Oh well... work hard for exams!! =D 加油啊!!!

So pale~

The aftermath of cyclone Chris...*no animal was harmed in the making of this pic*

e continuation of cyclone Chris...*poor floppy*

*say cheese*

appeared to be studying but....

TL!!! 我在偷吃!! Hahaha~

Random shot @ Ajisen

Yummy cake & tea @ Teadot

More photos from the weekend of "studying"... & cam whoring!! Wahahah....

Act cute photo from TL....

~自拍~

~自拍again~

This week is Chris's turn... Lets see what kind of photos will we turn out this weekend! Hahaha...

Wohohoho.... I finally found a nice skin. Not black lar but hope to transform it to black soon. I love the swirls on the top corner, and its so clean in layout... Oooo i like!! Rite now its still in a bad shape with no new stuff and no updates on the links. So people, just hang in there while i finish my this semester of torture from NTU hahahah... So I tink I will most likely only add posts and little bits here and dere... =)

Oh ya, wanna post up some cam whore pics from last weekend. Hee... TMM in hall with my TL... Apparently it was suppose to b a mugging weekend, but we ended up relaxing and nt much studying... =P

Hahaha.... Paiseh TL, post up yur pics also! But so cute mah! hahahha... Enjoy!

The "NERD" biting chips!

Muackz!!

Oooo nice couple shot! =D

The slightly more "toot" couple shot!

Happy Birthday Faith!!! =D Hoped u had fun and like yur present too!! Yur wallet is very nice....*drool*

Argh... can't find my perfect skin!! I prob shld go and learn n explore how to do one... Zzzz..... Need a nice dark skin... Zzzzz.... Hahhaha

Fresh new start!!! =D And everything will be alright again!! Learn to love myself more...=)