hook, line and sinker

Still feeling the ache... my muscles are recovering slowly... i still wince when i bend over, or lift my arms or if i sit down... hahaha feels like an old lady here...

Can't go training this weekend, gotta go to the temple with my family. Abit sad to miss training...

On the 2nd section of my thesis: materials and method. Seemed easier to write than my introduction part. Just dunno if its good enuff tats all.

new music in my musicbox: Jay Chou - 安靜. i find that its the most suitable song to describe my current status. Been my song for quite a long time already... Kinda hoping that this kind of feelings does not last any much longer and some other song will replace it soon. Read the lyrics in detail and every line strikes a chord deep within me.

周杰伦-安靜

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天 
睡著的大提琴 安静的旧旧的 
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得 
 
你说你也会难过我不相信 
牵著你陪著我 也只是曾经 
希望他是真的比我还要爱你 
我才会逼自己离开
 
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开 
为什么还要我用微笑来带过 
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他 
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过 
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开 
为什么我连分开都迁就著你 
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快 
我会学著放弃你 是因为我太爱你

muscles....

my body is protesting after a day of training under the hot sun! hahaha... had my 1st training on sunday and it was good... very tiring and barely could catch up in stamina but it was good nonetheless...
Today, i can feel all the aches and pain and sore and burns all at once hahaha... shoulders are both burnt from the sun, back and arm muscles are screaming out in pain with each movement hahaha.... slopping aloe gel is like the solution to my sunburns... red like lobster still hahah... gonna be tan once again!!
Loved the feeling to be back in action again. Hopefully I can catch up with the rest of the team asap...

More things coming up would be fyp and exams and then graduation!! Dunno if i'm looking forward to graduating or not... maybe i am in a way... *shrug* many things i'm still trying to figure out, balance and also forget... one step at a time....

procrastination at its best

THESIS!! i must do my thesis!! man... been dragging it long enuff le... i need pple to study wif me!! alone cannot leh... keep doing other stuff... man....

sleep sleep sleeep.... tml got training.... need wake up early and expend LOTS of energy!

lazy feel

weekend is here soon!!! yay! so i can wake up naturally on sat morning.... looking forward to it.. something that i havent had for a while...

Nothing interesting happened these few days... so its good in a way... peace! this entry gonna be real short... cos i wanna sleep already. keep feeling sleepy and tired very easily. Think it cos of low blood... zzzzz dreamland!!

one down.. and a few more to go

Finally handed in the HRM project report today! big WOOHOO!! and pat on the back to the both of us roomie! keke... now i'm gonna fully concentrate on working and fine-tuning my thesis. However, i'm at a bit of a block here. Things had been moving VERY slowly for my thesis as most of my energy had been used on HRM.. Bad choice. now i'm at a very tight schedule to work harder on my thesis. Its due for another round of looking thru by my mentor! TONIGHT! oh man goodness! i'm still very very very far behind! gotta work hard tonight and send it over to my mentor by tonight.

I'm not sure if i'm glad that i had a nap to get some energy back, or was it a mistake.. slept around 3am last night, woke up to get to work, and now i'm back in front of my laptop! well, to make the most of my time!

Convo date and time is out over the week, and so is the date for dinner & dance for the sbs graduating class. Roomie keep asking me to go... i havent really decided since i dun really like the idea of sitting at a table with pple i'm not that familiar with. Theme is Cape... i'm like 'huh?' interesting but kinda also not sure what to go as. its gonna be boring to just go in a dinner dress.. kinda playing with the idea of Red Riding Hood the movie look, or a Victorian vampire look hahaha... more gothic-like... see if i decide to go in the end 1st... weird thing is that Convo is right next day of d&d... crazy! we were thinking like half the cohort will appear at Convo still having hangover... and d&d on a weekday night doesnt really sound very fun too you know... can't go out and party after that too...

calm after the storm.. or a false sense of security?

today is so much better after the hysterical monday night/tues early morning... But i still want to kill a specific person, the feeling is still there... how can there be such a person with such THICK skin to leech on so people so many times!? seriously he needs someone to wake him up! how is a person going to survive in the working world by freeloading on others?? OMG... i still can't believe it...

can't rant too much tonight... need go to bed and also to decide if i should go school tml in the afternoon. Its scary but also seem inevitable if i dun wanna give up so easily... I shall see if my roomie can get time off from work. Haiz... I feel bad having to miss work so frequent this week...

Only thing pulling me by this week is the weekend activities... i need a run very badly...

Unsettled mood & random verbal diarrhea

Very sian probably sums up the day's feeling. Wasn't so bad in the day but as the night drew closer, i got more and more sian... Now, i think i'm trying my best to control my mood and not let it plummet even more into the abyss of sianness! hahaha...

Probably can think a few reasons that triggered: one is having a project due next week and i'm not at all interested in doing it. Others are probably better left unsaid... its driving me nuts... Life is not always smooth sailing... well, i think in my case, my thoughts and moods are not always smooth sailing is more like it... seriously going nuts here...

Tml gotta go back to school for a briefing... kinda lazy to go, now that i think about it. Also dunno what on earth i wanna do... I need another jog to clear my head tml... Just signed up for a night trail run at the end of April. Some obstacle course that's going to be like through the night and its only 1.6km. But along the way will be many obstacles that we have to overcome as i heard from my friend who is going with me.

Same friend just told me to go for training on sunday for dragonboat. Can't wait to see how's her team is like. Also can't wait to expend all my excessive energy so that i can totally de-stress. Dun think its just stress from school work, but also on the emotional side i think. No avenue of release emotionally so i guess its kinda building up to explode one day, who knows? *shrug*

Not that I dun wanna share also.. just believe that its not nice to be piling it on people who also have problems of their own too. In a way, i also kinda getting a bit eccentric in what info i am 'taboo' about hearing... its sort of a 'protecting myself from hurting' way i guess... it comes and goes as it likes... so far, its still not that bad... gets better some days and gets worse some days, depending on what i have seen/heard/'watever mode of communication'...

See... i'm already ranting on and on here... can't imagine if its to a real life person... i'll probably drive the person to madness =P okay, i'm not making any more sense, and writing more is not going to make more sense than before. Shall just end here and go back to my report writing.