wth am i doing? i'm gg crazy...

I'm dancing~~ my iphone my pure white iphone!! its finally here!!

一棵开花的树

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻为这
我已在佛前求了五百年
求他让我们结一段尘缘

佛于是把我化作一棵树
长在你必经的路旁
阳光下慎重地开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近请你细听
那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情
而当你终于无视地走过
在你身后落了一地的
朋友啊那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心

A very nice poem I heard on 海派甜心 read by Rainie's character... Its very... i dunno... serene?? I loved it when i 1st heard it on the 1st episode of the show. Together with the scene shown in the show, it was fabulous...

Bleah... been sick again!! Get well soon me!!!

*Sorry.. somehow can't get the chinese words to be bigger... sorry if ya had to squint yur eyes a bit to read*

TIRED! just sent a friend off at the airport. She's gg to china for internship and studying at the same time. Gonna be away for half a year or so... gonna miss her!!

meanwhile, the gloomy cloud is still hovering around a lot of pple... Me? Well, i'm still not so bad yet. But i'm also puzzled over a lot of stuff. Confused is a more appropriate word to describe ba...

Started watching new show! 海派甜心! Its a very nice show... heh... love the look of Rainie in the show! The 1st few episode her whole look is quite rock?? goth? Hmm.. not really goth ba... just dark ba, and i like it a lot! Just a bit apprehensive, like wondering if i can carry off the look...

Her hair is so nice in the show... that's the style i wan try. Comments pple?? Haha.. shld i go and try this style? But it also means that i have to go straighten and dye it dark brown.. And the bangs as well... pls gimme some comments ba! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! heehee...

Wow! I left this place stagnant for so long that one of my friend started complaining! Hahhaa... paiseh ah unkle jim! =P away with the unhappy tone and welcome the new year! & my new world! It has been an okay start of the new year. No doubt with a few downs, but it has still been a good start. All thanks to my dearest friends standing by me thru my darkest time during the past half year... I cannot express how happy I am to have them by my side... I foresee some more downs but I will definitely pull myself thru... Pls bear with me for a while more okay??

New semester is starting and I need to go all out at full force to mug my brains out. Last sem was a total wreck!! OMG! I almost died when i saw my exam results!! No thanks to the past few months of missing too many lectures and tutorials.... So this sem, i must GAMBATTE!!

Learnt new things in the past week. YAY! Finally learned how to play Left for Dead 2! Met new friends too!! Played hockey and softball for IHG.. A bit disappointed that our hockey girls din manage to get to the semi-finals... We did well already girls! Be proud of our effort! Played softball for the first time since JC also. Its so fun to play!! Dirty & muddy game, but nonetheless a very fun game! Just that we were lacking in practice...

A lot of photo taken also, but i havent had the enthusiasm to go dig them and post them in FB or here... so have to see when i'm in the mood ba! hahahha....

a song to describe how i feel...

我恨我愛你 - 張惠妹

面帶微笑離開你懷裡　我聽天由命
最後一張王牌在手裡　二選一的機率
不能放縱愛你　就放過自己

愛情已經過了甜蜜期　多說也是無益
愛不愛我已經沒關係　一點小傷而已
你可以很放心　我不會為了留你假裝可憐兮兮

都怪我太不爭氣　我恨我愛你
Oh~ 我愛你　只是因為你是你
Oh~ 我恨你

你有我看也看不清的小聰明
你有我說也說不完的壞脾氣
你有我數也數不盡你　的新戀情

沒關係
我有你拿也拿不走的舊回憶
我可以一個人安靜的忘記你
我恨你最後那一句　我愛你

formatting my laptop... and using my bro's laptop to blog. Finally finished my exams... It was a horrible sem... totally cannot concentrate on studies due to the many things that happened in the whole of the past 6 months... walking in and out of it... yet not completely out of it yet. in the end, probably chui my whole sem n exams...

Listening to song and blogging down my feelings... Feeling a lot of emotions, not only for myself, and also for friends around me who are now walking out of their break-ups... Sometimes i wonder, do people really know what they want in a life partner. Being one of those who r still in the midst of healing n walking out, I still wondering what exactly happened or what went wrong. Sometimes I really blame myself for not doing anything... Or for not being a considerate partner. I regret for not being someone who can complement him or to care enough for him. I thought being beside him and caring for him was how I can show my love. I regret the times that I was being spolit or unreasonable... Then, i felt angry... angry for being betrayed. now, its just sadness left... I put my whole heart into loving this person... Never ever loved so much... Waiting for us to graduate, to move together into a new chapter of our lives... to be there, supporting and loving, caring and respecting each other. I thought he is the one that will hold my hands to the end, to hold me through all the happy times, the sad, the troubled and the many more to come in our future...

I still see the future that had the both of us... to have a family together... how our home will be like, and how would it be like to have kids and raising them together... now, its just a dream, a beautiful yet now painful dream...

After hearing from someone else, suddenly i feel a lot of emotion, for myself, n for my friend. I really thought about a lot of things... and all the emotions started pouring out from my broken heart. after so many months, my feelings for him has not cease a single bit. Trying to move on with my life, and wanting to forget...