lazy feel

weekend is here soon!!! yay! so i can wake up naturally on sat morning.... looking forward to it.. something that i havent had for a while...

Nothing interesting happened these few days... so its good in a way... peace! this entry gonna be real short... cos i wanna sleep already. keep feeling sleepy and tired very easily. Think it cos of low blood... zzzzz dreamland!!

one down.. and a few more to go

Finally handed in the HRM project report today! big WOOHOO!! and pat on the back to the both of us roomie! keke... now i'm gonna fully concentrate on working and fine-tuning my thesis. However, i'm at a bit of a block here. Things had been moving VERY slowly for my thesis as most of my energy had been used on HRM.. Bad choice. now i'm at a very tight schedule to work harder on my thesis. Its due for another round of looking thru by my mentor! TONIGHT! oh man goodness! i'm still very very very far behind! gotta work hard tonight and send it over to my mentor by tonight.

I'm not sure if i'm glad that i had a nap to get some energy back, or was it a mistake.. slept around 3am last night, woke up to get to work, and now i'm back in front of my laptop! well, to make the most of my time!

Convo date and time is out over the week, and so is the date for dinner & dance for the sbs graduating class. Roomie keep asking me to go... i havent really decided since i dun really like the idea of sitting at a table with pple i'm not that familiar with. Theme is Cape... i'm like 'huh?' interesting but kinda also not sure what to go as. its gonna be boring to just go in a dinner dress.. kinda playing with the idea of Red Riding Hood the movie look, or a Victorian vampire look hahaha... more gothic-like... see if i decide to go in the end 1st... weird thing is that Convo is right next day of d&d... crazy! we were thinking like half the cohort will appear at Convo still having hangover... and d&d on a weekday night doesnt really sound very fun too you know... can't go out and party after that too...

calm after the storm.. or a false sense of security?

today is so much better after the hysterical monday night/tues early morning... But i still want to kill a specific person, the feeling is still there... how can there be such a person with such THICK skin to leech on so people so many times!? seriously he needs someone to wake him up! how is a person going to survive in the working world by freeloading on others?? OMG... i still can't believe it...

can't rant too much tonight... need go to bed and also to decide if i should go school tml in the afternoon. Its scary but also seem inevitable if i dun wanna give up so easily... I shall see if my roomie can get time off from work. Haiz... I feel bad having to miss work so frequent this week...

Only thing pulling me by this week is the weekend activities... i need a run very badly...

Unsettled mood & random verbal diarrhea

Very sian probably sums up the day's feeling. Wasn't so bad in the day but as the night drew closer, i got more and more sian... Now, i think i'm trying my best to control my mood and not let it plummet even more into the abyss of sianness! hahaha...

Probably can think a few reasons that triggered: one is having a project due next week and i'm not at all interested in doing it. Others are probably better left unsaid... its driving me nuts... Life is not always smooth sailing... well, i think in my case, my thoughts and moods are not always smooth sailing is more like it... seriously going nuts here...

Tml gotta go back to school for a briefing... kinda lazy to go, now that i think about it. Also dunno what on earth i wanna do... I need another jog to clear my head tml... Just signed up for a night trail run at the end of April. Some obstacle course that's going to be like through the night and its only 1.6km. But along the way will be many obstacles that we have to overcome as i heard from my friend who is going with me.

Same friend just told me to go for training on sunday for dragonboat. Can't wait to see how's her team is like. Also can't wait to expend all my excessive energy so that i can totally de-stress. Dun think its just stress from school work, but also on the emotional side i think. No avenue of release emotionally so i guess its kinda building up to explode one day, who knows? *shrug*

Not that I dun wanna share also.. just believe that its not nice to be piling it on people who also have problems of their own too. In a way, i also kinda getting a bit eccentric in what info i am 'taboo' about hearing... its sort of a 'protecting myself from hurting' way i guess... it comes and goes as it likes... so far, its still not that bad... gets better some days and gets worse some days, depending on what i have seen/heard/'watever mode of communication'...

See... i'm already ranting on and on here... can't imagine if its to a real life person... i'll probably drive the person to madness =P okay, i'm not making any more sense, and writing more is not going to make more sense than before. Shall just end here and go back to my report writing.

2am

& i've just finished watching my princess. Yawn... think its more like fast forward through the good parts... At least its not a drama that i'll have to cry my eyes out again keke...

& since i've wasted yet another saturday, it means my sunday will be most likely spent on working on my project! I DUN WAN!!! sigh... oh well... wash up and off to bed then... its gonna be another early day up tml...

 My haircut

My 1st handmade Amineko (no face yet at the moment)

Haven't had pictures uploaded for some time and thought that this would be a good time to start. And since i din take much pictures lately, so got a few of those in my hp. My new haircut from abt a month back le ba... and the cat i made just recently. I'm working on my 2nd one at the moment... a pink one. I can't find darker coloured yarn at Spotlight... at least not in the brand that i'm using currently. The rest of the brands are a little pricer that this one... Lets see how this pink one goes. I'm experimenting with the different types of yarn threads. Like 100% wool, or mixture of wool and nylon and acrylic... so far, all seems to be quite okay. The 100% wool is a little more fuzzy after much handling than the rest i suppose *by my own observation that is* Its a very fun hobby! Just that it does make my left little and fourth finger a little aching and numb lately... I think its from too much gripping and handling of the thread... Lucky my mum kept her old steel crocheting needle. the one i bought was too thick for my current 4ply yarn. it'll prob work better on the 8ply ones...

I'm also quite glad after meeting with my fyp supervisor today. Lucky that her comments about my thesis so far wasn't that bad. Little bits of here and there needed editing and also more on the lack of substantial literature review still.... need to read and read more journals!!

Going for a jog tml morn so gotta sleep! Wanna train for the next 10k marathon i guess.. and see how i stand against it hahaha....

1 hour more to Friday!

Friday is finally here once again! Soon... weekend is a mad dash for time still even if its here... just that i dun have to wake up very early for work... keke... Feeling much refreshed and better after a day of rest at home yesterday.

Kinda in the mood for some sea sports or some marathon. Will be looking out for some new marathon to go this year... Sundown seems good to me just that i will need to train somehow...
time to go for long run!!

sleep sleep! late already... or else i wun wake up tml!

凌晨四點鐘

Still awake at this hour blogging... not that i'm awake specially to do this...
I just finished my 1st draft of my thesis introduction so that i can submit to my supervisor for comments. Hopefully it will not be painfully thrashed out! hahaha.... so after finishing it, i thought of spending a few minutes blogging and to send some emails out heh heh...

Anyway, it's still not the end of my worries yet. I have a list of stuff to complete and hopefully i will get them all cleared ASAP.
1. complete my HRM project proposal! *very urgent!*
2. Continue to work on my thesis.. *after intro comes materials & methods*
3. BS313 video lectures and revision and tutorial practice*so many!*
4. D&D closing and accounts stuff...*because i'm the treasurer! need get it done ASAP too*
5. Get well soon and get some rest! *Ah-choo!! sniff sniff*

Lately been missing my poly life quite a lot... like frens and school environment and stuff...
Oooo... and one of my cat is done! just that it has no expression yet *cos i dun have black cross-stitch threads!* Starting on my 2nd one already... and hope that it will be even nicer than the 1st one!

Time for bed!!! Zzzzz.....

水曜日の感じ

spent some time writing to clear my thoughts... to chat with myself in a way...
wednesday is here, which means half the week is over. getting a new hobby to keep my mind and heart occupied. getting more and more proficient in my crocheting techniques, and hopefully my 編み猫 will be completed soon. Need more colours for my yarns. Can't really get myself to do so many in baby colours or light colours anymore. Just doesn't feel like me... i'm more cool colours and dark colours! haha... thus my 猫の家族 must be like me! keke... lambie & sheepie are going to get jealous soon as the 'family' expands...

I need a break from work soon, prob take a day off to recharge next week. maybe i shld go KTV by myself for the morning. hopefully to relax and keep my mind from wandering.

Still now, although its more or less settled, i'm still a bit confused as to what had happened for the past few months. Kinda made me feel like '有點被耍' 的感覺. seriously... 我很好耍嗎? 我不是被拿來解悶的好嗎... 真是有點納悶...  =_=' *diaoz...*

三八婦女節快樂

early morning... and a cool wet morning... nice to be sleeping in but i'm at work keke... kinda quiet in here...

wud not have noticed the day till i got the early message from my fren... seriously i dun remember such days... and usually i wait for the girls to send messages to each other! this year guess i'm the 1st haha...

Slowly catching up with my lectures, still very behind with HRM... dun have really very big interest in the topic... lets see how my day goes today... not really in a very hardworking mood... I'm making progress in my new hobby... wonder if its going to turn out nice like what i've seen... but can't really find the colour i like that doesn't come in 100% wool... i think a mixture wud turn out better...

Confused

Changed the look of my blog... Looks good... but lately nothing much to blog about...
Busy is one word to sum up what's going on. Juggling FYP and work, catching up on lectures and project. Almost having a non-existent social life... haha...

General feelings lately is... hmmm... what would be a good word to sum it all?

Jaded.

In a still, dead kind of way... kind of like i dun belong here... and my blog title says it all i tink...
Feels good in a way... kind of like a flat emotionless life generally... neutral... no feelings of much to talk about...

Quiet would be a good word, like my heart is in a white snowy world which only i exist. Light snow falling around me... trees dressed in sheets of white powder... sparkling sky... silence all around... wonder how long this kind of feeling will last... & what will come next...

At least one thing i know is i closed a chapter of something... maybe thats got me thinking... and thus the above feeling generally... Maybe... *ponders....*